My Family is NOT Perfect

Here is my family...

I would love to say that we are the perfect family sorta like pictured here.....

Maybe we have our moments and look picture perfect, but the reality is that we more and likely resemble this....

Don't forget dad too.....

One evening during supper, Brian was sitting at the table tired and stressed and ready to vent on what happened at work. I looked brain dead from being so tired from my daily childcare and household duties. Our three year old, Brayden, was busily shouting out "Pee, pee, and Poo, poo." while laughing his head off. And our one year old, Carson, was crying and pulling a fit because supper wasn't in front of him.  

During the course of the meal, Brian tried to vent 10 different times to his exhausted wife about work, but was interrupted with either Brayden playing with food, Carson throwing food on the floor,  Brayden getting another kick at saying "pee pee and poo poo,"  Carson throwing a fit, and Brayden getting out of his chair without permission.  

The result:  I never got to hear what had stressed Brian out at work. Brayden was finally removed from the table, and his remaining food was reserved for breakfast for not behaving. And....Carson had to go to timeout for throwing his food.  

Far from perfect.....maybe you can relate?

Yet if we were to take pics of our family at dinner time and email it to family or put it on facebook for friends to see, we would always show this....

Or this.....

Do we have good moments in our family. YES...I wouldn't trade my family for the world.  I do have a selfless husband who tries to put me first.  I do have a tenderhearted 3 year old who loves more deeply than I have ever seen any human love.  I do have a happy, laughing one year old who loves to cuddle.....however, that is only part of the picture.

We are not perfect.....

Brian and I have many times responded selfishly towards each other, and dare I say it... we do argue at times.   And while Brayden can love deeply, he can also be the exact opposite and throw the "laying on the ground kicking and screaming" kind of tantrums.  And Carson, has recently decided he likes to hit when he is angry.

Why is it so important for people in society to know that my family isn't perfect? Simple...

Nobody can obtain perfection in this world. 

Yet, we still see people spending so much of their time trying to make their lives and family look perfect to others, and when others see that perfect family, they despair knowing that they cannot ever reach the standard that they see.

Mothers try to make their children look perfectly behaved, and other mothers who see these perfectly behaved children despair...

Husbands try to make their jobs look perfect, and other husbands despair when they see they they will never have that dream job....

Families try to show how perfect their vacations are, and other families despair when they see how their vacations never measure up to what they see in those photos...

Spouses try to show the world how amazing and perfect their honey is, and other spouses despair thinking they will never have a spouse like the one they see...

Here is the point I want to make....

Are you ready for this?  Read carefully...

People don't need to see how perfect your family is, they need to see how perfect our Savior is.

While Christians DO need to show how Christ has changed them through the way their lives are led (faith without works is dead as said in James 2:17), they should NEVER feel that they should have to show a perfect life. Perfectionism can only be seen through Jesus, that is why we NEED Him.  

Read this next part carefully,

Ready?

When people try to strive for perfectionism, they are saying that they DO NOT need a Savior but that they can do life on earth on their OWN and can obtain eternity on their OWN.  

The world constantly says that we can't earn our way to heaven on our own, but the apostle Paul says differently in Philipians 3.  In the first part of the chapter in Philipians 3, Paul was criticizing people who were putting confidence in their "flesh" to obtain righteousness (or perfectionism). He even went on to say that if anyone could put confidence in themselves (or flesh), it would be him, and he goes on to brag about the amazing things he has done, but then he concludes with this.

8 What is more, I consider everything [that he had done to obtain righteousness] a loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them garbage, that I may gain Christ 9 and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law,but that which is through faith in[a] Christ—the righteousness that comes from God on the basis of faith. (Italics mine)

Righteousness (or perfectionsim) can only be obtained through Jesus.  He is the only one that meets that standard.

Apart from Jesus, we are completely wicked. Paul even states how "There is no one righteous, not even one," in Romans 3:10.  Even when humans perform acts of good deeds and kindness apart from Christ, it is always with a selfish motive.  That is why we need Jesus!

Humans need Jesus every second of the day....for He is our righteousness.  I always loved this song by Matt Maher:

Lord I need you,

oh, I need you

Every HOUR I need you

My one defense,

my righteousness

Oh God, how I need you

Apart from Jesus we can do no good.  Even, Jesus himself says that, I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. (John 15:5)

We can do nothing good apart from Christ.  We can do good things, but if Christ isn't our motive, then it is a sinful motive.

So why does this matter?  

We need to stop trying to show people our so called perfect lives and show them our need for a perfect Savior.

I remember one time when I was so frustrated...I wanted to be an example to others on what the perfect Christian life was, but I was messing up.  I told a friend this,  "I can't seem to respond appropriately to people, my son keeps throwing fits, and I keep getting angry."  She then said something life changing...she said this,

You ready?  Read carefully....

"Katrina, when you mess up, it is just another opportunity to point to people your need for Jesus."

You see, my family isn't perfect because we need Jesus.  Apart from our Savior, we are broken, flawed, and messed up.  I don't want people thinking my family is perfect, for if they believe we are perfect, then the need for Christ no longer exists.

You see, Christ died on the cross to pay a debt we couldn't pay.  He died for all of our flaws and mess ups.  We no longer have to achieve perfectionism to enter heaven, Christ did that for us.  All we have to do is make Him Lord of our lives.

Does my family have some perfect moments...sure.  But I want to make one last point. 

Ready?  Read carefully...

If anything GOOD comes from us, it is because of Christ, and ONLY Him.

You see, Christ gets the glory either way...in the good or bad.

My family isn't perfect, but that is ok...we are dependent on our perfect Savior, not ourselves. And for that I am thankful! 

I am proud to say my family isn't perfect so that I can point people to our perfect Savior...

By the way, His name is Jesus.

A Three Year Old's Compassion

This is a story of a three year old who showed Christ's compassion and love....

Brayden had just received a gift from his sweet grandparents, but unfortunately he was not a big fan of the gift...a Raggedy Andy doll.  I suppose that Andy might look a bit scary to a child with his big wide eyes, triangle nose, and red hair.  After all, he does look DIFFERENT from what normal dolls typically look like. After several prompts from me, Brayden finally said "Thank you," quietly to his grandparents, but did not touch the doll for the rest of the trip.

A doll all alone and in need of some love. 

One morning after the trip,  I had set Raggedy Andy on the rocker, and Brayden saw him.

 "Mommy," he said,  "I don't want him, he looks so different."

So began a discussion.  I said, "Awww....poor Andy.  How does he look different to you?"  

Brayden pointed to Andy's nose and eyes and talked about how they looked different.  

'Brayden,' I said gently, 'Remember one of your favorite books, "The Love Monster,"  where no one wanted to love the monster because he looked scary and different, but then a Mama found him and loved him anyway?  He wanted a home too, but no one would love him at first.'  

We then proceeded to talk about his favorite "Jay Jay" plane book where it talks about how God loves those who are different. The story showed different looking planes.  

I looked into Brayden's eyes and said, "I think Grandmommie and Granddaddy wanted Raggedy Andy to have a home where he would be loved even though he looks different, and they chose you because they knew you would love him."  

The result: I have never seen a more compassionate three year old.  He took Andy into his arms and started hugging him and giving him kisses.  He spent the morning sharing his cereal with Andy, giving Andy a drink from his cup, and took Andy for a piggy back ride on his shoulder.  He cuddled with Andy while watching TV,  took Andy with him to Walmart, and even put chap stick on his doll.  That night he hugged up to Andy and went to sleep with him safely in his arms.  He is now in love with his doll because he took compassion on him and decided that Andy needed love to.

I wonder what would happen if we would love people the same way?  If we would not turn away from them because they were different, but if we saw them through the eyes of Christ....through the eyes of his unconditional love and acceptance. Maybe we should learn a lesson from this three year old child and show people compassion no matter how different they are from us.  We all may be different, but our hearts are all the same...broken and in need of a Savior.  Instead of looking down on others, lets take the time to show them Christ's love and point them to our need for Him.  

Beloved, if God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. 1 John 4:11

Hope

Lets face it, all of us have something we place our hope in...

We hope that we will get that job promotion.  We hope that our marriage to our spouse will bring the happiness and joy that we desire.  We hope that our children will behave.  We hope that a friend doesn't have cancer.  We hope that the new house will turn out to be our perfect dream home.  We hope that our kids will stay well and not get sick.  We hope that our vacation will go smoothly.  We hope that we can catch up on sleep after not getting enough.  We hope that we will excel in school, jobs, and sports.  We hope....we hope....

What exactly is hope?

Hope is simply a feeling of expectation or desire for a certain thing to happen.  It  is wanting something to happen or be the case. (taken from google dictionary)

People's hopes and dreams originate from a desire to live in a perfect world. Therefore they place their hope in things that will give them such a world. 

Yes, humans desire a perfect world, but where did that desire emerge from?

Humans did not originally live in a broken and imperfect world...they lived in an eternal state with a perfect God.

Whether a person is a believer or not...we have forever instilled inside of us because that is what we first lived in....  

When Adam and Eve first lived in the garden of Eden, they lived in utopia.  They lived in an eternal state in the presence of God.  Every hope and desire was given because their hope and desire was placed in God.  Eternity was beautiful, perfect, and full of everything that we keep searching for here and now  in this world.

But all that changed when they rebelled against God and did things their own way....Eve hoped to be like God and gave in to the devil's lies and ate the fruit from the tree of knowledge of good and evil.  She placed her hope in the wrong thing...herself.

As a result, this beautiful utopia that we were supposed to live in became an awful dystopia. 

So now people spend their lives in this broken messed up world trying to place their hope in broken things only to discover hopelessness....their desire to live in a perfect world has become impossible....

or not....

Thankfully Jesus came to restore our broken lives to God.  He gives us hope by paying a debt we couldn't pay on the cross so that we could have that utopia...eternity with Him forever.  All we have to do is believe and place our trust and hope in Him.  

Jesus is our hope....

He gives us ETERNAL HOPE....



So here is the major question...

Why do we, as Christians, continue to live our lives hoping in the here and now?

Why do we continue to place our hope in people, situations, ideas? 

Why do we place our hope in our families, our homes, our jobs, and our friends?  

Why do we try to jam pack our lives with hope in broken things as if this is the only chance we have for a utopia?

Perhaps it is because we don't fully comprehend that our hope for a perfect world doesn't come from this life on earth...

2 Corinthians 4:16-18 says, 16 Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. 17 For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. 18 So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

We don't lose heart because this life's troubles are only temporary.  We are wasting away and will die someday, but that is not the end.  So we focus on what is unseen...

 eternity with Jesus...

Think about this life in comparison to eternity...our life here an now is like a mist as stated in James 4:14.  Eternity is forever.....

OUR WHOLE LIFE: The dot is life on earth...the line is eternity with Jesus.

If we truly understood and lived our lives for eternity with Jesus instead of making our forever here on earth, how would living our lives change....

Instead of hoping for all of the good things that we believe this life has to offer, we would be preparing and pursuing for the life to come. 

Instead of pursuing the perfect job, perfect house, perfect retirement, perfect marriage, wouldn't we be preparing ourselves and others for eternity?  

There is a beautiful missionary couple I know that had it all. The wife was a nurse with a solid reputation, and the husband had a nice high paying job.  They lived in a beautiful house with all the comforts that could be offered, but then they realized their true hope...

Jesus.  

They realized that this life here and now was temporary, and they are now in Zambia living in tents, traveling from village to village trying to prepare others for eternity by showing them who their true hope is.

Not all of us are called to become missionaries in a far away country, but we are all called to be missionaries in the lives we live here and now.

Take it a step further...suppose you place your hope in eternity with Jesus...the troubles then that we face in this world become temporary in light of the perfect world to come.  

Instead of grieving for the loss of a loved one, we would rejoice in where they have gone.  Instead of placing false hope in creating perfectly well behaved children, we would place our hope in Jesus and work to prepare our children for eternity, not to make them look perfect in this imperfect world.  Instead of falling into despair over the disease that has overtaken our body, we would rejoice in knowing that we will someday have no pain. Instead of responding to a mean co-worker in an unforgiving way, we would display love and forgiveness in order to reflect Jesus so that our co-worker could know true eternal hope. Instead of pursuing wealth, we would show people what true wealth is, knowing Jesus and resting in the hope we have in Him knowing that money here on earth is temporary, but life with Christ is eternal. Instead of trying to see what joy and happiness our spouse can give us, we would be focusing on helping each other with our walk with Christ, preparing each other for eternity.

We no longer place our hope in broken things but in the one who is unbroken and promises us an unbroken world. 

Jesus is our hope for a perfect forever world....


So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.....

*To learn more about viewing life through the eyes of eternity, read Paul Tripp's book Forever

Motives

For the third time once again, my body was going bonkers. Hormones were going crazy, food looked awful, nausea constantly attacked me with no rest from it some days, and exhaustion could be felt throughout my whole body.  While, I was thrilled to welcome another baby into our family, I dreaded the feelings that came with the first trimester.   When I was pregnant with Carson and Brayden I tended to at times walk around with dark stormy clouds hanging over my head.....

that could erupt into a hurricane!

Feeling tired? Then I had valid reasons to yell at my husband and  snap at my oldest child. Feeling sick?  Then it was ok to curl up on the couch and wallow in self pity. Husband not responding to my every need?  Then he deserved a cranky wife. My feelings completely dictated how I responded to my family.  I literally was Hurricane Katrina!

After Carson was born, Jesus has been doing beautiful things to my heart.  He has shown me his beautiful unconditional love and grace daily.  While, I have known Him and asked Him to live in my heart at a young age, I only originally understood my need for Him in the future, heaven, but I have learned an even deeper truth: I NEED HIM HERE AND NOW.  He has shown me how dark my heart truly is when I do life without Him.  Without Him, I am consumed with myself, and He has shown me that I need Him daily and constantly.  Apart from Christ, I can do nothing as it says in John 15:5. This realization has caused me to get on my knees with praise and thanksgiving for the fact that He is indeed my hope when without Him I have no hope in how I live my life.  Anything I try to do in my own strength leads to continuous frustration. Anything else I turn to will lead to disappointment, but He never disappoints. I have learned to rest in the unbroken one, because without Him, my heart is completely and utterly broken. He paid a debt that I couldn't pay on the cross, so that my heart could be made new.  He gives me a new identity and a NEW MOTIVE that is not consumed with me, myself, and I.  2 Corinthians 5:15 sums up well with how I feel:

    And he died for all, that those who live should NO LONGER LIVE FOR THEMSELVES BUT FOR HIM who died for them and was raised again. 

People's motives in this world for the things they do has always been geared towards self, but I have realized how much better He is than anything in this world including my motives apart from Him.   JESUS IS MY MOTIVE!  He lives the life in me and through me.  He is beautiful and better than anything I desire apart from Him.  He is the light in this dark world that will never fade.

Circumstances will change.  Good and evil happen.  Feelings come and go. The world is messed up. Our bodies suffer.  BUT Jesus is constant and never changing.  So despite the rise and fall of circumstances in life, I can rest in Jesus and respond for His sake.  

Feeling nauseous?  For Christ's sake, I want to respond patiently with my boys.  Feeling exhausted?  For Christ's sake, I want to speak lovingly towards my husband despite how I feel.  Hormones going crazy?  Jesus is better, and I want to reflect Him despite the roller coaster of emotions that are running through me.  My heart is consumed with Jesus.  He receives the glory in ALL things.  It is not about me, but about Jesus.  So for His sake, I respond with His love despite how I feel. There is no better MOTIVE.

Have I messed up at times throughout this pregnancy and filled my heart up with things other than Christ? Do I at times try to do life on my own without Him?  Sure, but those mess ups constantly remind me of my need for Him.  I am forgiven, loved, accepted; and my heart is still a new creation because of Him.  

JD Greer puts it this way:

In Christ, there is nothing I can do that would make You love me more, and nothing I have done that makes You love me less.” “Your presence and approval are all I need for everlasting joy.” “As You have been to me, so I will be to others.” “As I pray, I’ll measure Your compassion by the cross and Your power by the resurrection.

What a beautiful Savior we have.  He is truly all we need.  He is truly the only motive is worth having!